As soon as I get in, the first thing I'm asked (after 'are you ok') is "I'm making steak, do you want me to make you something else?". Ok so that sounds really nice, extra nice for willingness to please daughter's new vegetarian lifestyle. The thing that pisses me off is, I get asked this question every five minutes. I'm 20 years old and, unlike a baby, I can say when I'm hungry and oh oh shockingly - - feed myself!!! For the love of God, if someone else tries to give me food today I will start screaming in horror film manner. And insisting, on and on and on, it makes me want to burst out crying because it makes me sooo stressed. Do you want this? No. Do you want that? No, not hungry. Do you want that other thing then? ... Oh, what about this? *screams to self, not to disturb others*

Parents do whatever they can to try and please you, then think you're ungrateful or get upset when you dont want to be spoilt. I dont like people doing that kinda thing for me, I like doing things myself, and I'm a slight control freak. It's in my family's nature to be overprotective, my dad was given breakfast in bed until the day he got married. And now my mom will get upset after reading this, and call me ungrateful. Dammit. And probably go "fine, fine, I wont give you any more lifts". Now, lifts I want, because I cant drive! It's not that I'm ungrateful, it's that it annoys me when I want to change something but cant. And how can someone feel worthy when people do everything for them? Sometimes I feel like my parents would be happier if I was a narrow minded I-do-nothing-out-of-the-ordinary type of girl. But I'm not a sheep, and I wish they'd be proud of me for being eager to stand on my own two feet. After all, they've given me the opportunity to have an amazing life so far, so why would I stop?

No song for today, I want peace and quiet.

And as I was typing that, my dad shouted "do you want mousse Monica?" *screams to self, not to disturb others*

Love,

Mon xx