You know when you're a 13-yr-old girl and you watch Urban Legend and develop a crush for Jared Leto, and then you grow up and get over it, and years later he's playing a gig at your university and signing autographs where you eat your lunch, and you go and meet him and speak to him and he speaks back to you and signs your arm? No?! Well I do!

Very emo, I know. I don't care. May I just remind everyone how wonderful my boyfriend is. I would've pretended I didn't know me, and definitely made fun of me, but he's the one who suggested waiting around and putting up with lots of annoying goths so that I could meet the band. Everytime we see 30 Seconds to Mars or I hear their song 'from yesterday' and the line "on his face is a map of the world" comes on, I think of Mike. He's my world.

So today's song is:

And here's the evidence of the crime (evil bouncers wouldn't let us take pictures with them):

Only thing is, usually big fat black permanent markers dont come off easily. And I have to go out looking like a groupie.

Love,

Mon xx

My ikkle puppy is 4 months old today! I, being the lovely mummy that I am, made him a meatilicious cake. Here it is:

He loved it, only thing missing was a little hat, but if the past 2 months have been a lesson, I'd never voluntarily give him cardboard...

Love,

Mon xx

The Boy took us to see Linkin Park tonight and they were sooo good, we had a great night, having had sunday dinner with his family and then going to a gig. I'd forgotten how many good songs Linkin Park have, and this is one of my favourites:

If the lyrics mean something to you, you know exactly what the song's about. I do. And right now, I'm going to bed to forget about it. Until I wake up and think "here we go again". I also love the line "everything you say to me puts me one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break". And "I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart, what it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard". Sweet dreams

Love,

Mon xx

You know when you wake up feeling like a glamour puss and decide that you fancy dressing up and being all girly and fabulous? Today was one of those days. I'm going on a Tooth Fairy mission (Oliver lost his 2 front bottom teeth thus needs a present from the fairy because money wouldnt really do the trick...) looking like Dita Von Teese (minus the interesting yet nonetheless slutty attire). When I say "look" obviously I mean black hair up in a do, red lips and a classy look. Well, the classy part isn't really any different from the norm. The woman oozes glamour.

Hope you have a great weekend everyone!

Love,

Mon xx

I came home to check on my baby and give him some lunch and turned on the TV to watch the news. "We're expecting some bad weather here in the North." No...really?! Now there's a shocker. I don't wanna complain cos it's sunny, but it's so windy and freezing it's like rubbing your skin against a big ice cube.

In other news, I'm so happy with my last semester at uni so far. The modules seem interesting, my timetable is hilarious (I have 2 days off) and we had a lecture about cultural jamming today. Brilliant. It fit in perfectly with my last post. The teacher jokingly asked if anyone fancied going to Alaska tomorrow morning. Thing is, I would. Why not?! Really, think about it... if someone came with me, I'd be on a plane somewhere right now. We need more so called "rebels". I also learnt that the guy who came up with one of my favourite consolation terms, "Shit Happens", was a "rebel" in the 80s.

Also in good news, after repeated ginger incidents, I gave up on going blonde and dyed my hair black. It's not that I dont like ginger, it's just that it doesnt look good on me. Imagine mediterranean with red hair and you'll get the picture. Or Bozo. On my first outing as a goth dark haired girl, I got all sorts of creeps whistling/smiling at me. Frankly, I'm quite scared to go out there again soon.

And last, as it is my no-longer-little sister's birthday, we're gonna have a family do tonight and undoubtly have a good time. Which will make up for being woken up before 8am by this: "whaaaa whaaaa", LOUD NOISES, "but whaaaa", LOUD NOISES, "MOOOOONICA!!!", *riiiiing riiiiiing*... I thought there was a riot taking place in my living room, but it was only my sister complaining about not having GHDs. Because she just broke her second ones within a few months of breaking her first ones. And she wanted to borrow mine. Inspires trust, doesn't it?

Anyway, loooong post. Gonna cuddle my baby for a bit. Hope you're all doing ok.

Love,

Mon xx

If I was still 13, I would've been devastated at the news of Heath Ledger's death! He was one of my imaginary boyfriends; me and my friends idolized him. Nonetheless it's still a shock, he was so young. It's strange how one minute you're living your life and taking things for granted as usual, one more hour wasted, one less objective accomplished... and then you're gone. Just like that. That's the main reason why I justify being a free spirit and carefully impulsive. If I died tomorrow, I wouldn't have done enough, seen enough, and broken my own boundaries. Isnt that sad? What's even sadder is that it's so hard to find people who feel the same way and are up for doing things with you. People are so limited and too often allow the little things to stop them from being truly happy. I'm more of the belief that if you want to do something, you should. If the outcome isnt exactly what you wished for, it cant be worse than not even trying. I'm so fed up with not doing everything I want to do because it wouldnt be appropriate or safe to do it on my own, it's frustrating. I realise not everyone can have this outlook on life; some people are happy living what I'd call a monotonous life. It's just a shame that they obbey other people but wont allow themselves to follow their own wishes. It's a big problem I've always had, I just can't understand conformity. Yes, it's usually easier - but what's the point of living somebody else's life when you've got your own and it's all yours and you can do all sorts of interesting things with it?!

So my plans for today are:

* go for a walk in my favourite park (I often end up there when I need to reflect), wearing my favourite boots
* let go of the fact that my hair colour hasnt turned out the way I wanted it to, cos it looks alright anyway and the trusted BFF noticed it looks different
* go to a café on one of my favourite places
* Give Oliver loads of cuddles
* Have a good night with my boyfriend

I hope you have a nice day; and don't let anyone spoil it for you!

All my love,

Mon xx

Considering that I only have 4 months left in uni, it's about the time I said I'd realistically start thinking about my prom dress, though I've actually been dreaming about my prom since I was 13. You see, I missed my old high school prom by a few months. And then I didn't have one as I went to an all girls catholic school. And our 6th form didn't have one either. So I will go over the top and wear a fabulous dress and get Mike to pick me up and give me a corsage. As I typed "Parisian couture" into google, I came across some great ideas. My favourite for a long time has been this gorgeous blue Badgley Mischka creation. But maybe I'll go for something a little more understated, like this, or this, or this. I'm sooo excited!!

Night night,

Mon xx

You just do. The answer to my own question a few weeks ago, sometimes you know the reality and you subconsciously try to conceal it, but you know the truth. You just do. Hurrah.

So I can't give you my opinion of PS I Love You because we ended up watching Dan in Real Life instead, but that was good! Really cute and light. Throw in some sweets and beer and spending time with your mum and you've got a good night.

While I'm waiting til its time to leave the house, here's a quiz I stole off Ros:

5 Things Found In My Bag
1. Purse
2. Phone
3. Lipgloss
4. Mirror
5. Umbrella

5 Things Found In My purse
1. Change for transport
2. Boots card
3. Library card
4. Body Shop card
5. 3 little black & white photos of me and my boyfriend, taken in booths at train stations in Paris and Amsterdam

5 Things Found In My Room
1. Books
2. Candles
3. Guitar
4. Dog bowl
5. Lots of cushions

5 Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do
1. Write a book
2. Skydive
3. Be in a successful rock band
4. Dye my hair blonde
5. Scream really loudly from the top of a bridge

5 Things I’m Currently Into
1. My puppy and the joys of puppyhood
2. Apple and cinnamon candles
3. Jazz
4. Red wine
5. Walking

Have a great day everyone

Love,

Monica

...a lot more than bible reading goes on in the bushes." - that's a quote from a book I read last night. I was told it was a good read and really, it's so funny and interesting. It's about religion; I'm faithful but not necessarily to one particular religion, even though I was baptized in one of the most religious places in the world, Fatima, by a father who is obsessed with ceramic holy images and has several around the house, and a mother who has a couple of Buddahs sitting on top of furniture. I believe in a higher force who looks upon us, but not in the actual church. How can you call everything that's natural of human nature a sin? Everything that leads to gratification, everything that makes you happy, it's not right to let the Pope be the judge of your life. That's not a criticism though, I'm open to and understanding of all views, it's just my modest opinion. I'm a good girl regardless of heaven/karma/reincarnation. Besides, shit happens - whether you're a saint or a sinner.

Anyway, what I meant to say was that I'm going to see PS I Love You, don't know where that came from. I've heard mixed reviews about this film so I'll have to see it for myself and give you my review soon Today's song, the noise that resembles the feeling currently taking place in my head, is:

Love,

Mon xx

Woohoooo exams are over! I am so happy, for the first time since Christmas I haven't had to get up and revise, it's brilliant. I'm catching up with all the things I had to neglect in favour of my studies - laundry, reading nice books, listenning to music, playing with my baby and not worrying. *sigh of relief*

So, how's everyone? Hope life's been treating you well. I even have a song for today, because I spent this morning making a mixed cd for the boy - yes, we're still so together and so happy and making everyone puke with disgust at our undying love and affection.

Today's song is:

Love,

Mon xx

I know I've been a terrible blogger and been away for ages, but you'll have to forgive me because I haven't had time to do much else other than study for and sit exams My last one is tomorrow though so I'll come and catch up with everyone, promise! I just took 2 mins to get away from revision and post a song I heard just now, it's so beautiful and speaks so much that I had to share it with you.

Save Me From Myself

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See you tomorrow!

Love,

Mon xx